I decided not to write about every session, well, because they are all the same. The same dimming and normalization. You get the point.
Well...now I have something new to write about. I had another brain map at sessions 20. The worst part of the brain map is all the gel they have to put on the sensors. I have locs so...yeah
it was a mess. Just like the first brain map, I had to stare at a box of tissues for 6 long minutes, then sit with my eyes closed for 6 minutes. It was easier to focus on the box and my mind was more calm. I was told...some people cant even sit there for 6 minutes. So, I think I'm doing pretty good.
After the brain map I met with Dr. Carlton again to go over the mapping. So, yellow and red are bad. The first mapping had a lot of the bad. Green, light blue and dark blue are good. The second map had a lot more greens and blues. Basically, what Dr. Carlton planned to happen is happening. He's slowing down my brain. He's rewiring the bad circuits.
He explained that I should doing better all the way around. And I am. I really am. I have had some anxiety but not too much lately. Work has been easier. I spend my days doing complex problem-solving, that is never the same time sensitive data. My wife, let's just say she has had less of a headache lately.
He said a bunch of stuff I honestly don't remember, but I do remember smiling a lot...under my mask, of course.
The next visit they put the sensors on the back of my head, which is the area we are targeting next. Nothing else new.
I have made a Sociological observation...
I get to Dr. Carlton's office around 930 every Saturday morning. There has always been a long line of cars blocking the entrance. Kind of annoying...until I realized what the line was.
It is a food bank line for the church at the end of the street. Every week the line gets longer and the people look more and more "middle class". I wont get political, but we gotta do and expect better, people.
